Interacting with humans is so tiring. I get exhausted after having one conversation. I spend so much energy making sure I say the right thing, listening carefully, and trying to be funny that by the end of it I’m so thankful it’s over. Am I the only one that focuses so much on the dynamics of a conversation that I have no idea what the other person and I talked about after?
I do enjoy conversing with people for the most part. It’s not like I hate people, I just don’t feel the need to be super social. I enjoy my online time with Netflix. I just feel like I need a nap after any social event. I need to recharge, I guess. It’s not like this with every one I know; there are some people I can be around for a long time and not be yearning for much needed alone time. I don’t know if this is mostly because I’m introverted or because I have anxiety. Maybe both?
The good thing is I can fake it for the most part. I’m pretty good at pretending to be social and super high energy when really I’m more like a sloth. People get surprised when they find out what a homebody I really am. I am pretty conflicted on whether or not I should hide how introverted I am. I have always felt the extroverted people have an advantage over me.
I don’t know, I should probably try to interact with humans more. Hah.