I have been on and off antidepressants for about 3 years. I suffer from generalized anxiety disorder and panic disorder. I try to combat it with counseling too but I need the medication for the extra help. I can’t help feel a slight bit of shame that I need antidepressants to feel like I can get through the day. I don’t tell any of my friends I take them, it almost feels like my dirty little secret.
It is daunting to me that I need a drug to function properly. I always find myself asking, “Why me?”. It’s not easy to deal with mental health. The stigma is still so strong in our culture. I don’t think anybody would care or judge a diabetic taking insulin, so how are antidepressants any different? I know taking them doesn’t change me as a person but I fear the judgement from others.
It is clear that my antidepressants make me happier and healthier. I shouldn’t feel I’m cheating in life. Everyone has something they need help on and I just happen to need help with my anxiety.
This is a lot of rambling. I guess what I’m trying to get at is that I should be able to accept these medications. I have no problem with others taking them but it seems like a deep rooted issue with me taking them.
Having to take antidepressants doesn’t make you are a failure.